so i was having “a time” this afternoon when i got home from work. i really love & hate facebook, let me just start out by saying that much. so i sign on to FB, twitter, gmail, pandora etc… well the pages load and i look at the FB page… there is jeff. he is not single anymore. he has a girlfriend. what. the. mother. fuck. i kind of lost my shit & wanted to puke. the nausea has just settled and it’s been about four hours. i was pounding papaya enzymes & chugging water just to not let the situation get the best of me. who am i to care really? i’m not an ex of his or anything like that. just forever have been in love with the boy. i have this special thing for him, hard to explain really. it’s lame in all sorts of the word but he is the matt skiba to my heather hannoura. hence the photo chosen.  let me explain that in the past i would have spent the day cowering & listening to absolutely depressing music, crying that no one will ever love me etc etc… pretty much lamesauce personified. but, to my relief & surprise i was over it in pretty painless fashion sans the stomach feeling horrible. i’m baking my feelings into a butter cream bundt with chocolate icing. i’m good like that. i recover pretty efficiently these days. blame it on the medication. hallelujah, thank you baby jesus! i talked to killz earlier this evening & we broke down our week in 5 sentences. she said “fuck ny jeff. you’re too chola for a baby bitchface like him!” and i had sent to her before that that i was not as traumatized as i thought i would have been & that i knew i was too chola for him. I JUST WANNA DANCE! i’ll find the one or rather someone who’ll appreciate the insanity that is me, katarina lewis aka boots electric aka chola. i’m having fun with my texts to jesse jackass & makin’ up new dance moves on the regular. i’m really glad i’m getting back into derby *skating etc* i’ve been apart of HRD now starting on my second season. i’m trying to think if i would have stayed in houston if i would have wanted to really skate for HRD… i don’t know. i think after what i was exposed to last year i would have to opt for another league that i could grow with as a skater. i think i’m explaining this wrong, but i don’t want to go into some over-drawn out explanation.  what i’m focusing on for 2010: -FILM!-my hair’s triumphant return to awesome-friendships. nurturing & caring for individuals who are all around badass for sticking by me-craftin’. i miss doing the rad shit i use to, so starting in the next month i’m back to making radtacular shit. hit me up if you want in on the goods-physical sculpting aka workin’ out!-skating. i want to use my body for an awesome outlet of badass chola. WORD!-karaoke. i need to perfect my bad romance singing voice-make a home. i want to make a place that i can call home. a little nest of chola if you will-making attainable goals. this helps keep me centered and realize there are things to look forward to-going back to school. this i already have in the works, going back to learn sign language & be an interpreter! dope i know. i can travel the world with this gig!-buying the ticket & taking the ride. to new york. i miss my friends too much. i owe them a much needed visit-inner state vaycay. making at least 1-2 trips a month to austin & or houston. mental cleansing if you will-journaling. already doing it with my crazy thoughts & recipes-baking-dressing up. getting all gussied up at least once a month to prove i am the sex kitten i claim to be.-believing in myself. nuff said.-creating a zine & sticking to it. already in the works with trevor & jeff. first issue should be out by the summer, let me know if you want a copy!-making art. trying to find my new muse, so that’s a goal.-drink more prosecco. i normally go through a bottle a week or more when i’m feeling extra saucy. i’ve been lacking, bubbly is my cure all happy juice. i need to throw spiked tea parties and dance with my glass bubbling over! lets do it! -actually attempt to make friends in dallas. this will be hard, but ass city will help me out for sure.  did i mention my pandora playlist right now is rocking my god damn mother fucking world right now?! i’m jus’sayin all in all i’d say the pit that was in my stomach was overcome very gracefully & very much so an accomplishment for myself. bravo, cherrs chola!  if you’d like, follow me on twitter [bootsxelectric] i say random off the cuff things that will make you cringe or say ‘fuck yeah, word!’ 

so i was having “a time” this afternoon when i got home from work. i really love & hate facebook, let me just start out by saying that much. so i sign on to FB, twitter, gmail, pandora etc… well the pages load and i look at the FB page… there is jeff. he is not single anymore. he has a girlfriend.

what. the. mother. fuck. i kind of lost my shit & wanted to puke. the nausea has just settled and it’s been about four hours. i was pounding papaya enzymes & chugging water just to not let the situation get the best of me. who am i to care really? i’m not an ex of his or anything like that. just forever have been in love with the boy. i have this special thing for him, hard to explain really. it’s lame in all sorts of the word but he is the matt skiba to my heather hannoura. hence the photo chosen. 

let me explain that in the past i would have spent the day cowering & listening to absolutely depressing music, crying that no one will ever love me etc etc… pretty much lamesauce personified. but, to my relief & surprise i was over it in pretty painless fashion sans the stomach feeling horrible.

i’m baking my feelings into a butter cream bundt with chocolate icing. i’m good like that. i recover pretty efficiently these days. blame it on the medication. hallelujah, thank you baby jesus!

i talked to killz earlier this evening & we broke down our week in 5 sentences. she said “fuck ny jeff. you’re too chola for a baby bitchface like him!” and i had sent to her before that that i was not as traumatized as i thought i would have been & that i knew i was too chola for him. I JUST WANNA DANCE!

i’ll find the one or rather someone who’ll appreciate the insanity that is me, katarina lewis aka boots electric aka chola. i’m having fun with my texts to jesse jackass & makin’ up new dance moves on the regular.

i’m really glad i’m getting back into derby *skating etc* i’ve been apart of HRD now starting on my second season. i’m trying to think if i would have stayed in houston if i would have wanted to really skate for HRD… i don’t know. i think after what i was exposed to last year i would have to opt for another league that i could grow with as a skater. i think i’m explaining this wrong, but i don’t want to go into some over-drawn out explanation. 

what i’m focusing on for 2010:

-FILM!
-my hair’s triumphant return to awesome
-friendships. nurturing & caring for individuals who are all around badass for sticking by me
-craftin’. i miss doing the rad shit i use to, so starting in the next month i’m back to making radtacular shit. hit me up if you want in on the goods
-physical sculpting aka workin’ out!
-skating. i want to use my body for an awesome outlet of badass chola. WORD!
-karaoke. i need to perfect my bad romance singing voice
-make a home. i want to make a place that i can call home. a little nest of chola if you will
-making attainable goals. this helps keep me centered and realize there are things to look forward to
-going back to school. this i already have in the works, going back to learn sign language & be an interpreter! dope i know. i can travel the world with this gig!
-buying the ticket & taking the ride. to new york. i miss my friends too much. i owe them a much needed visit
-inner state vaycay. making at least 1-2 trips a month to austin & or houston. mental cleansing if you will
-journaling. already doing it with my crazy thoughts & recipes
-baking
-dressing up. getting all gussied up at least once a month to prove i am the sex kitten i claim to be.
-believing in myself. nuff said.
-creating a zine & sticking to it. already in the works with trevor & jeff. first issue should be out by the summer, let me know if you want a copy!
-making art. trying to find my new muse, so that’s a goal.
-drink more prosecco. i normally go through a bottle a week or more when i’m feeling extra saucy. i’ve been lacking, bubbly is my cure all happy juice. i need to throw spiked tea parties and dance with my glass bubbling over! lets do it! 
-actually attempt to make friends in dallas. this will be hard, but ass city will help me out for sure. 

did i mention my pandora playlist right now is rocking my god damn mother fucking world right now?! i’m jus’sayin

all in all i’d say the pit that was in my stomach was overcome very gracefully & very much so an accomplishment for myself. bravo, cherrs chola! 

if you’d like, follow me on twitter [bootsxelectric] i say random off the cuff things that will make you cringe or say ‘fuck yeah, word!’ 

1 year ago  Notes (0)